EDITED on Tues, 30/8

haiz... dunno why my blogger appear chinese words again... dunno hw to read -_- omg

anyway... feel so terrible for the past 3days...

SICK~~~ gastric problem again... eat oso pain, dun eat oso pain -_- everytime go c doct, get the same medicine zzz, price oso the same. nth changes...

everythin i eat gets indigested... then every nw and then nid to vomit out -_- in the end my body consumes nothing which i ate. NO APPETITE.. so SAD...

anyway... mm BO HUA HEE~~~ lolx
thanks to those who asked abt me... =)
especially ah dong -_- one time asked me sOOOoo many qns...

Let me tell u wad he asked me in ONE sms~~
1. Got c doct?
2. Got take medicine?
3. Got rest?
4. Eat ler mah?
5. What sickness?
Pengz. He's so nice lol

tml gt ecd presentation and i havent iron my formal wear... OMG~
dunno wan to wear wad tml oso... LOL... ECD presentation over... Yeah ^^ everythin's fine... teacher's very gentle to us haha... nv tio shoot left right center =x

exams comin... in another 2weeks' time, tink i will miss sch abit la... miss the teachers... our fav hangouts (7pm area, underpass), not forgettin canteen 3's vegetarian food, and SIM... canteen 1 sux LOL

Definitely i will miss my fellow frenz, BUT NOT MY CLASSMATES... =) miss those days the 5,6 of us stayed back till very late in sch to rush proj. The most memorable days - IIP days...

Need to stdy revision liaoz... got 3 papers... First SS, then IB, and lastly KMS. So ppl... if wan date me, can date me after 14th Sept... provided u book me in advance and i'm available =p

Finally found a nice old song by Huang Ying Ying... so nice but i always dunno the title of the song... So now i know, the title's - Ku Sha (dun luff at me lei, i noe it's a very old song >.<) Meaningful lyrics...

Hanyu Pinyin version of the chorus:

Feng chui lai di sha luo zai bei shang de yan li
Shui toh kan chu wo zai teng ni
Feng chui lai di sha dui ji zai xin li
Shi shui ye cha bu qu de heng ji
Feng chui lai di sha zhuan yue suo you de hui yi
Shui toh zhi dao wo zai xiang ni
Feng chui lai di sha yin yin zai ku qi
Nan dao zao jiu yu yan liao fen li

-tats all-



Ahhhhh~~~~~ (imagine me shouting out loud at home, venting my anger)

OMG... i nv c anyone so S T U P I D lor.... ask her do ppt slides... she go copy straight from the report........... I'M NOT BLIND FOR UR INFO -_- IT'S SO OBVIOUS LOR... a r g h~

ppl~ pardon me for using caps in this post... need to vent my anger... first time i do ppt slides till so pek cek... all rubbish work... so rubbish... sitting in front of the lappy for 2hrs+ and i'm nowhere finishing the slides... WEI SHE MO ZHE GE SHI JIE KE YI RONG NA ZHE YANG DE YI GE REN? (roars)

*&&&*^^%^$$$#%$^&*()(*%^#@@@##$$%

W T H~~~ i tink she deserves a 10%, not 25% or 50% for her contribution in the peer assessment... if there was a way tat i can make her fail... I WILL!!!! AHHHHHHH... (roars again)

Inside me is BURNING... so angry... for those who cant imagine & visualize... This is wad happened...

I went to my NP Email, saw the ppt slides... OMG OMG OMG... everythin in the ppt is copied straight from the report... SHE sux~~~ ahh... dun wanna use tis word, BUT she forced me to use it to describe her.... -_-

If u jolly well dunno wad is a presentation, PLS.... ASK ME... i'll be glad to share u some pointers... dun treat me or ur beloved teacher like a foolllllll by copying everythin WITH the UNDERLINES there... exactly same as the report... MIGHT AS WELL as the teacher to read the whole report, wad for she need you to stand in front to present, to talk when u sound like a lullaby? she dun even bother to change abit or cut down the words to make it look like points... This kind of ppl CANT BE BOTHERED lor... juz do for the sake of doing it...

Financial part oso... ask u put highlights in the ppt, u put summary... -___- c liaoz wan to chui xin gan... Were u slping during last week's presentation? u expect your beloved teacher to c ur SUMMARY and blindly put her hard-earned $ to invest in your biz? WAKE UP CAN??? ARGH...

MY BLOOD IS BOILING.... (ROARS)

my dearest mum nv hear me roar continuously for 2hrs+ before... (can ask her to verify lor LOL) SHE drive me crazy... to the MAXIMUM lor... eeeeeeeeeeeeeek how i wish i can one leg giv u lor...



REFLECTION ON KMS
hmm...

doing my part for kms... lala~
wanted to cut down on the no. of words... BUT... mission impossible =(

the difficulties faced are... hav to skim through whole report and "catch" wads important, and do recommendations, then conclude... as well as take abit of here and there for the executive summary... we hav to make sure that every part of the report flows smoothly...

was doing the citations for references for the kms report... alamak... take mi so long to do it... -_- do till fallin aslp LOL

through tis kms report and the topic tat we had chose (Enterprise Portals)... we learnt more abt hw enterprise portals relate to KM and hw we can make use of the tools in the Enterprise Portals to share information and knowledge etc... Also, y some companies chose Sybase over mySAP Enterprise Portals... at the same time, the features and benefits of these 2 products...

anyway... went to c mj's friendster blog juz nw, saw some of wendi's pics... ONLY then i realised... the few of us looked so SONG~~~ lolx... those were the days...


Nxt... to someone

I hope that...
- u will always b happy... (happier than me)even tho i noe u r nw...
- u'll find someone who will love u as much as i did b4...
- ........ many many hopes and wishes...

Many many regrets... and many many sad memories... hoping to overwrite it with some good and happy ones... BUT mayb there's sth stoppin me... OBVIOUSLY, there's a BIG barrier... How i wished we nv knew each other, nv even started... nv nv did many things... BUT if things din happen, we wouldnt learn and grow... i would rather u block me in ur msn than i were to block u... seeing u in msn reminds me of ur everything... and i dun wan to... if only i could turn back time...... =)

there are many many things i wan to say... BUT nv had the chance to say... even nw i say le its of no use too... i can only say to myself... >.< kip on repeatin to myself nv to make such a mistake again... coz... it hurts... even tho we are frenz (by words only) BUT u make me feel as if we are strangers... "Zui Shou Xi De Mo Sheng Ren" (the most familiar stranger) ARE WE? Whenever i hear the song "Qing Tian" by Jay Chou... it reminds me of u... and i HATE it... coz ... -_-

i'm movin on... BUT juz can let go... its so diff... same concept wif - u like sth so much, u noe u cant get it, yet u still hold on to the thought of havin it and dun wanna let go...

-tats all-




-_-

Brief intro of yf (refer to pic above)
name: YF
age: 21
Tall, handsome, wear spects... LOL wad an intro =x
Know him through ks durin gb session where i used to call him "lao da de peng you" =)
Tink we know each other for 1yr+ already.. time flies. Nice guy... smtimes u nid consolation can find him, he can b funny at times too. Overall, a gd fren... u wouldnt find it difficult to share problems wif him. A happy-go-lucky guy, and when he's sad, he's so quiet... then make u feel so sad too... =( Booo...

Chatted wif yf in the afternoon... tis time... he's playin PS2, nt maple haha... so at least he replies... Thanks for his consolation... tink he oso same as me gan chu duo duo, coz being influenced by me... =x I'm sorry darling... LOL... ppl~ dun misunderstand, darling is a term i used to call him for a very very long time liaoz... he oso giv up & accept it... haha

Came across some of his pics in one of my folders, when i tot everythin was gone when i reformatted it the other time... There was tis pic... SO CUTE & funny... a pic of him wrappin his head wif a sweater or sth lydat... look liked mushroom... =p
And i showed him by puttin it as a display pic on my msn... =)

Many ppl saw and asked me if tat pic was me -_- omg......zZzzz
So i look like a guy? o.0" behaviour maybe lar... BUT i still look like a ger eh... i've gt long hair, altho yf's hair oso quite long, BUT i win him k... Next, his eyes so small, mine bigger oso lei... =x SOOO... ppl~ it's nt me LOL

slept for 5hrs omg... when i'm supposed to take a short nap zzz

Equation: slp = waste time, waste time = no time LOL

Anyway, nw i'm awake, and its 3am...... -_- juz read Joyce's blog... a long one... BUT interestin and the memories were there. it appeared vivid, even tho i wasnt there and cant experience those moments they shared. Read liaoz feel so sad again... Gan chu hen shen again... basically most of us de blogs are tributes to Wendi =(

Hope she is happy in heaven... Suddenly it reminds me tat on the day we went for her funeral, it rained... When the rest of the days in the week, everyday was hot, humid and SUNNY... it only rained on TAT particular sunday... does it mean anythin? Hmm... mayb Wendi knows tat we are sad tat she's left us bah...

Lastly, the other time i mentioned tat i will be postin some pics of the fireworks... BUT its too MUCH liaoz... so ended up i uploaded it to a website... it took me nearly 3hrs to upload all the pics...

Here it is: (Click on the Fireworks to go to the link)
Fireworks

Enjoy... =)



Life is short... unpredictable... so fragile... =(

After comin hm frm Wendi's funeral... lots of thoughts flashed across in my mind... cant get to slp ystday nite till abt 5am... wanted to find smone to tok to... but tat kind of timing, everyone would be asleep... zZz

So sad and shockin to receive news tat our ite classmate, Wendi is gone.... gone 4ever... =( So shocked to hear tat she met wif a bike accident and didnt make it... and her bf is still in ICU... Majority of us went to pay our last respects to her yesterday... This is the 2nd time tis yr whereby all our classmates gathered together... 1st, it was Mel's wedding... and then... Wendi's funeral... haiz...

When i saw her picture, suddenly deep inside me, felt so sad lor... why such a thing happened? Life's juz started for her ever since we graduated frm ite... and she's nt yet 21... why mus things be like tis? There were moments of silence, red puffy eyes... Some of us cried...

In ite, i wasnt close to her or her gang... but at least whenever we went for our class chalets, all of us would be luffing together... After graduating frm ite for 2yrs, we did not mit up... she became prettier... did nt expect the nxt time tat i'll be seeing her was at her funeral... =(

b4 we left... siew hui gave all of us a hug... that hug... "gan chu hen shen" (dunno hw to put it to words in English) even tho the hug was short, IT felt warm...it has been a long long time i last hug smone......

MEMORIES......

Still rem... she came to class wif her sling bag hangin ard her neck... the 1st time i saw smone carryin her bag in tis way amuses me... Aaron Tang would make fun of her most of the time... Class chalets - hw she snored... so loud till it woke some of us up... Flipped some albums ystday, saw photos of our class chalets... heart so sour (Xin Suan)... argggg...

You will always be remembered by us, Wendi... we will miss you...

Lastly... to all drivers/riders out there... PLS... drive/ride safely... Life is precious, treaure it... even if u do not treasure urs, pls don't jeopardize or put others' lives in danger...

Thank You...

p/s: for those who read my postings... pls dun console me wif phrases like "Life is like tat lahh..." i dun like such phrases coz i noe life is like tat TOO... thanks -_-



Wah... Sianz...

Woke up at 9.45am... went for online chat at MeL... haha... i'm the 1st one... (Proud of myself)... ^^ BUT so afraid that scarli only me alone chattin wif teacher =x In the end, there's 5 of us chattin, including teacher... Prefer small grp discussion, easier to c wad each other is chattin and respond faster. Unlike the other time, the IB chat... so jialat... SO MANY ppl chattin at one time, dunno who type wad and who respond to whose reply... total failure. Ended up i was juz there lookin at wad SOME ppl are typing... =) coz no chance to interrupt ah... all the qns answered by them u c... =( by the time i wan to ans the qns, PPL alrdy askin for nxt qns... SELFISH =p

Anyway, juz nw's ECD test was okok lor... can pass gd enuff ler... haha

Went to West Mall's MOS Burger for dinner wif Liyi and headed home... Watched last episodes of "Meng Zai Shou Li" and "Tan Pan Zhuan Jia" ... 11pm... did wad i'm supposed to do... KMS discussion board, Cover Letter for Events Comm, Reflection for WISP, case stdy for P&G... Time definitely passes quickly... NOW, its 2am -_-

Thanks to mj and yf for sendin me their cover letters for reference... Aga aga get an idea liaoz... BUT ah... i c here and c there, edit and type, ended up my cover letter very LONG ah... near to 2pages... need to cut short abit...

Hmm... lots of things to hand up tis mth, especially towards mth end... hope everythin goes on smoothly and hope tat my health will get better... dun wan to fall sick liaoz... coz sick = slp, slp = waste alot of time... LOL

Hope can complete my part for KMS asap, i'm afraid of ah mei screaming at me... =( altho my ears are ready to hear her scream... LOL

Lookin forward to tml's outin wif my 2 jiemeis - sy and mj... altho we everytime gather la =x SO SAD LAO DA CANT JOIN US... =~~~

and PPL... i love fireworks... hehehe. IF gt chance then shall upload all pics taken and gathered by me for all 2 c...



Ahh...

I'm sick...

After havin bad eye problems since mon... tues, wed not so gd liaoz... it first started off with my nose bleeding... till nw, juz a sneeze triggers the bleeding -_-
Woke up ystday mornin to find my whole body aching, and my throat is damn pain... Wanted to take a short nap ended up i slept for 3hrs... zzz if my mum din wake me up for dinner, i tink i can slp forever till the nxt mornin...

Mum told me she called my name, and i din respond, so she shook me -_- and my body was hot to her... so i woke up wif an aching body, half-opened eyes, painful throat. Dinner wasnt appealing to me... i ended up drinkin soup... then dad said... from the way i observed you for the past few days... u r not a robot u noe... LOL

After dinner, drank "KU CHA" (bitter tea?) piangz... so bitter lor... then stomach felt so bloated... Asked dad abt an assignment coz mum was bz wif my bro, he lost his temper and shouted at me. Felt so angry, then i shouted, "DUN WAN HELP ME SUA... i do myself... if i noe i wun ask u oso..." then i snatched back the paper from him and went out of the room and tears rolled dwn... now then i noe when sick and kana scoldin... i will cry... =( luckily mum was there when dad shouted at me, i heard mum tellin him, u ah... if she noe she oso wun ask u, u still shout at her... MAMA's the best... =)

in the end i ended up approachin mum for help, she really patient lei... sit dwn wif me and guide me... =) in middle of the nite i vomited the "KU CHA" all out... went back to slp... aircon at 20degrees + fan on... (i noe i abit waste electricity, not coz my dad's payin... it's coz i'm really feelin so hot) Went over to parents' room and asked my dad, y ur room on aircon long ago still so hot, then he told me, No la, i feel cold liaoz, is ur body gt problem... TRUE... i feel HOT everywhr -_-

Today, actually wanted to go sch for SS lect/tut/wrkshop, ECID lect... BUT... body feel so hot and weak... so decided not to go ler... Tml's ECD test and... it seems tat nth goes into my head... die... juz hope i'm able to pass...



My EYES givin me alot of problems recently... pain, red, blur vision... nxt few days mus wear spects le =(

nevertheless... Went to c fireworks last sat and ystday... NICE~~~
Juz tat mayb coz i'm short LOL... so certain parts quite low cant see ah...

Anyway... had fun last sat as well as ystday... Ystday's OUTING was GREAT, CHALLENGING... and a test of our SURVIVAL skills... haha... and... WE MADE IT! ^^

hmm... Mon mornin... Monday Blues.. woke up at 6, rch sch at 8, last min preparation for Events Comm presentation... Basically, i kip on "ta tu" haha... kip on forgettin wad i wan to say, then got problems pronouncin words... (signs of nervous-ness) haha

WISP lesson was a short short chop chop 1... b4 2pm can leave ler... Rch hm at 3 and took a nap... wakie at 5 and prepared to go out... MRT's empty... everyone's sitting in front of me, BUT not beside me -_- when i rch Cityhall... OMG... so many ppl...

Met Liyi for dinner (but only i ate -_-)... in front of me gt these 2 guys... SUDDUENLY... when it was their turn... 2 guys became MANY guys... all askin them to order for them... my face TURNED black in tat moment of time... then one of them was askin his fren wan to eat wad... his fren turned and looked at me, i opened my BIG eyes and stared at him, LUCKILY he saw it and told his fren "erm... i tink ltr i buy myself, nw i nt hungry" IF NOT... wahahahaha....

Then, waited for the rest to come then went over to the carnival@marina... piangz... the place so muddy lor... After fireworks... hmm... the MOST interesting & exciting part... HOW DID WE EVACUATE THE PLACE? lolx

the whole scenario looked exactly like the movie - WAR OF THE WORLD... juz tat in the movie, the ppl are rushin for the ship, and US - BUS =) we conquered the ROAD... ppl walk pathway, we walk on grassland... within 30mins or so... we are in the mrt headin for Cityhall ler... HAHAHA

Walked past Nooch, flashback of memories came back...sweet moments that will NEVER come true... =x Went over to esplanade to eat Oyster Omelette... NICE lor... crispy de... and home sweet home at 2.45am...

i wanna go c fireworks again on SUNDAY... ^^ BUT b4 gg mus finish all my assignments... OMG~



Tired... blocked nose... swollen and tired eyes -_-

Haiz... disappointed lor... today's schedule was to go Sentosa wif sy & frenz... in the end... woke up to find my eyes swollen, hav a blocked nose (so blocked) and leg muscle ache zzz

Anyway... wad hav i been doing for the past few days or week? Hmm... late nites recently... Fri, was rushin events comm... wanted to slp at 3+ AND... dearest ks called... LOL finally he called after a mth haha... then chit chat till 5+ and slp... then Sat... went to watch fireworks at esplanade wif Liyi, BL & Richard... So MANY ppl and the fireworks okok lor... not as fantastic as last yr lei... quite low oso... partly becoz i'm short too =x After fireworks, went to watch Wedding Crashers at Marina Sq. Funny movie... certain parts quite boring to me, but overall i tink i luff quite alot... LOL. After watchin movie it was ard 11+, we went over to paradiz centre TCC for "dinner" haha... and i rch hm ard 1.30am... =x

Sianz... tml presentin events comm, then learnin hw to write resume liaoz... sounds excitin to me... nxt week seem to b a short week, but there are lots of things to be done... -_- after friday, can throw my ECD notes away... hoho =p