For the minority of u who noes wad happened...

haiz... i'm really feeling DAMN down... seriously... each time i fall, it seems tat i fall deeper and deeper... dunno who to blame and cant blame anyone else BUT me myself and I.......

For the others who DO NOT noe wad has happened...

Pls~~~ dun probe further... thank you...

there's always a reason behind everything... tat includes the things i do too...

dunno hw to describe how i feel... and dun wish to ans any calls or on my hp... juz leave me alone for the meantime... thank you... i nid to be alone, be quiet... in my own world......

WHY....

why does things haf to turn out this.... way?

why cant things be simpler... or straightforward......

haiz.......

cant find a reason to smile today.... juz cant......

thanks to dear colleagues for cheering me up even tho they hav no idea wads gg on... today boss on leave, in-charge on MC, and i finished the ISO stuff for another dept last fri... so tat leaves me nth to do for the day... as usual... supportin and helpin anyone or everyone out... went "sight-seeing" wif clerk... she taught me lots of things today... quite interesting......

but tat doesnt cheer me up instantly too......

wadever the case......

gdbye monday~~~



finished doing wad i'm being assigned by my bosses ystday at 4pm... then boss asked me to look at drawings... -_- to me... a screw is a screw, and a spring is a spring etc etc... makes no difference to me leh... so i c till ai koon... LOL

went to mit jiemeis after wrk... chat alot abt work etc... AND... they bought me a watch... YEAH ^^v very nice wor.. bu she de wear leh... put in display and admire haha...

today... gt things to do ler... checked every report de details one by one... auditors coming in on Mon... bz bz wor everyone... LOL

tired... wee~~~



today on mc again...

woke up at 6am... felt so cold... like abit weird weird nt well... so went back to slp, and declared myself SICK... LOL

noontime went to c doct... queue long long... finally my turn... doct said... "Its u again..." and smiles... haha... =) he assumes tat i'm there coz of my gastric again... i said... no la.. tis time gt cough, cold, and blood when i sneezed... and woke up feelin cold...

he gave me mc for the day... lalala~

anyway... my dear frenz... let me say again for the last time......

will nt be comin online TAT often lor... smtimes online juz to send some resumes, read some emails and off to bed... so dun assume i read blogs leh...

anythin to inform me or wadsoever... dun tag or write in ur blogs or leave personal msgs in msn... coz i wun b seeing them -_- then if i nv reply u dun say i dao hor.. coz basically.. i dun SEE them.. hw to reply then? zzz

hmm... past few days feel so bad & regretted wad i've done to someone...
tink and tink and tink so long... finally giv up liaoz la.. let go of face & pride & decided to apologize.... thank god... problem solved... everythin's back to normal

6 more wks to go b4 contract ends... stil waitin for them to tell me hw much is the pay if i were to take over clerk's place when she goes on maternity leave... HAIZ...

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back. You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

after wrkin for quite a few weeks... startin to feel sianz liaoz...

coz...

nth to do... tmd~ hw come i feel as if i'm employed to do so KNS jobs and nt admin leh... -_-

today angry leh... gt new "girl" come in ystday... she chose to sit beside me for dunno wad reasons... table alrdy full of papers liaoz dunno for wad stil wan squeeze wif me wor... then kip on askin for this and tat... (Note: it's not as if i'm nt friendly... juz tat she's too demandin? wan these, wan tat.... i wonder y do ppl stil wan to join the company when it's nt tat great as it sounds? -____-

in office really is do own stuff and mind own business better... Haha... u'll nv noe wad others wil do behind ur back... so other than lunchtime and teabreak... most of the time spent in office is doing wad i'm assigned to, nt gossiping LOL...

past few days quite enjoyable altho only sorting old files and shredding paper... sat among few engineers from another dept... the way they talk and chased after ppl for wrk to be done, altho fierce, but quite interesting... at least gt some entertainment...

clerk asked me if i wan to b converted to being a perm staff, take over her place when she goes on maternity leave in Jan... first thing comes to my mind - MONEY $$$ haha... actually i dun mind takin over her place, firstly colleagues there are quite nice and ok... as wad they said - trainin someone whom they are more familiar wif is easier than gg one big rd and hiring a new girl... clerk's job scope like sound more challengin and interestin compared to my current ADMIN assistant position lor... i wait and wait and wait... but til nw so disappointed, nv learn anythin USEFUL... at least take over clerk, can learn Oracle, do claiming etc... no nid worry if today i finished my stuff, tml wad am i gg to do... haha...

hmm... enuff of work... sianz... tired... recently gt BIG MATTER to tink and worry and consider... too gd to b true... boo...



ya... after one day's MC ystday, today i went back to work wif... NOTHING to do -_-

there's like only 10 or less ppl in the office today... rest of them are either in Japan or Batam... poor me gt nth to do coz my boss and in-charge has gone to Japan w/o leavin any instructions for me... tink they tink i wun finish my sorting tat fast bah LOL... mon then they'll b back... so... tml and fri i'm left wif nth to do.. so i belong to anyone for the nxt 2 days... haha... admin becum like miscellaneous HAHA... but better than nth to do la.

r/s wif colleagues gettin better wif each passin day... =)

nwadays dunno shd feel happy or worried or to tink more than usual... ~_~
as i said, life's all abt makin choices? dunno wad to do oso... once, i used to tink TAT SOMEONE was my EVERYTHING... w/o him, i would feel terrible... yet i come to realize tat HE couldnt gimmi ANYTHING... needless to say - happiness

nw... came along smone who is able to gimmi ANYTHING or EVERYTHING i wan... but... i'm too afraid to make any decision... i wan to tink carefully b4 i decide on anythin... ultimate decision = i juz wanna b happy =) happy now, future... ALWAYS~~~

seriously, wo you yi dian dong xin... BUT... i still hope tat nature would take its course... if its meant to b mine.. it will be... i believe~~

thanks for being understandin and patient towards me... and also a gd listener to wad i always haf to say...



yup... so fast... my one week "holz" is over.

tml gg back to wrk again... back to seeing piles of drawings on table... (note: i hav 2 tables... BUT it's all occupied wif piles of papers... YET it doesnt look untidy k? LOL tats the most amazin part)

my in-charge is amazed by the piles of drawings on my table(s)... all labelled swee swee... so wan to find oso easier leh. coz i gt a strong feelin, i'll b the one handling these drawings... =)

stomach stil dun feel quite gd... still churning and abit "laggy"... the doct stil can ask me wad is "churning", feel like piaking her lor... ystday went dwn to polyclinic to change the hosp for my appt... wanted to change to TTSH instead of AH which is inconvenient for me... the person oso gimmi a ONE-KIND attitude lor... told me TTSH mus wait till nxt yr... gastro appt full... -_- so from nw till nxt yr i nid to bao zhong first b4 i go for appt which is NXT YR~~~

i told her nvm... i wan to cancel appt if it's at AH... then she gum wan wan to change for me to TTSH... nw i noe wads the difference when u go to c YOUR FAMILY DOCTOR and the one at POLYCLINIC (serving the general public) -_- service is so damn gd manz~~~ my foot giv u lar

anyway, went swimmin ystday... NOW... sunburnt... face look like ang gu gui lor... PAIN~ then went ktv wif frenz... after tat bth liaoz... sick ppl cant hold on for too long u c... tats y din join u all for la-kopi session at HV after tat... given my condition, tat cup of kopi is gonna make mi suffer for another few more days or a week, and i dun wanna take the risk...



This whole week - OFF/no nid to work

deepavali went to sutha's hse... her mum's CURRIES and rice were GREAT~~~ very fragrant & delicious... =D~~~ not forgetting another dish which looks like thosai but not thosai... =)
her hse's beautifully paint in pink... looks quite sweet and pleasant, altho i dun really like pink... haha

after tat went to mit sy wif mj... watched Tony Ja (main actor in Ong-Bak) in his latest movie - Tom-Yum-Goong (shd b spelt lydis bah)... VERY exciting wor~~~ lots of fighting... there's a scene whereby he fights from the first storey to the fourth storey... NON-STOP!! a MUST-WATCH movie... =)

headed dwn to Chinatown for porridge... yummy... =D~~~ and la-kopi session... then home sweet home...

ystday.. went to polyclinic EARLY in the mornin at 8+ to queue... QUEUE for que no. queue to c doct, queue to take med.. and lastly... queue to get referral letter from doct... PIANGZ... waiting time super long... basically... i was juz dozing off... each time nearer and nearer to my lala land~~~ i waited for 2hrs to c the doct... c nia leh -_- the doct oso attitude and sux lor...

everythin end abt 1pm -_- then i went to mit mum for lunch and some shoppin as she took half day to spend it wif me... mum brought me to a restaurant serving healthy food... quite expensive but okok la... told her, i wouldnt come here another time... LOL

after lunch went to buy handbag (one which Miss Cheong helped my choose de and i quite liked it) and off to marina... some tea drinkin session as both of us felt abit sleepy... mum oso bought me a nice shirt... those workin blouse... NICE~~~

was on the bus heading for dinner... then felt sharp pain near stomach there... kept quiet coz dinner was on me, i was gg to treat parents at coffeeshop for nice food... tot the pain would go away... BUT i was wrong -_- it became worst...

ordered raddish & carrot soup, veg, cereal prawns, oyster egg, sweet sour pork ribs... ate abit nia, felt really uncomfortable and went to vomit... felt so terrible lor... then only i told mum i dun feel gd... worst still... it was raining... and quite a distance for us to walk home... we walked very fast... mum asked me if i can walk anot.. if nt take cab -_- if take cab i cannt imagine wad how the uncle would react wor... make a few turns and rch ler... zZz

reached home and first thing i did was... took a plastic bag and VOMIT~~~ my lunch & dinner ALL OUT... gone to waste~~~ vomit ler felt better... but still in pain... mum offered to help me wash my clothes and did my hsewrk for me... so touched wor~~~ >.<

so pain lor... cant slp whole nite, keep on wakin up and slp, wake up and slp... wan to vomit but gt no intake oso dunno vomit wad... -_-