Read sth meaningful frm a forum juz nw...

so nice~~~

Have u ever heard of this...

all girls are angels from heaven. God removes their wings once they cry. A girl who sheds a tear for u is the one who is prepared to give up her heaven for u.

Do u know something?

Wat hurts a girl most is a guy who played with her heart & feelings. If u cant be sure that u can be with her till the last breath she has, give up on her. There's always a better guy than u out there.

-end-

personally i like the "angel" part of the phrase.. =)

and find it quite true regarding the part whereby wad hurts a girl most is a guy playing wif her heart & feelings and BROKEN promises... =|

6 more days to go... excluding wkends, PH... b4 my job ends... hmm... 10 more models to enter into the system... ai xi lor... Bleahz



hmm... last wk had a long wkend... had a xmas gathering wif the gers... had gifts exchange... nt bad leh my gift... eye mask sia... hav been using it since the day i received it... DAMN SONG~~~ LOL

nth much done on xmas eve or xmas day itself... boxing day went over to grandma's place for post-xmas feast... haha... gt turkey, roasted beef, salad etc to eat... nice nice... =)

went back to work again ystday... everyone's bz wif their stuff... rushing budget etc... i'm rushing my assignment as well =) got abt 2 more wks to go b4 i end my contract and say Bye to my fellow colleagues...

2005 coming to an end soon... resolutions for the new yr? hmm... havent tot of any yet... mayb juz wanna find a stable job and stable income... haha... coz who's gonna support me if i dun support myself? yeah~

let's hope 2006 will be a better year, since 2005 hasnt been a gd year for me... >.<

tot of changin my blogskin, but lazy to do so, coz too tired LOL...

pics~~~








wahahaha... if tats my monthly salary.. it'll be great =x



been bz for the past few wks...

bz at wrk... bz wif quotations, costing... etc...

PPL... if u tink i seemed to be unhappy with EVERYTHING... or anything... THEN did u notice the times when i'm happy with at least sth?

i dun tink so... anyway... cant b bothered wif hw u all look at me or feel abt me... wad for wan to so xing ku leh... i live for myself oso... nw, findin a job & earning $ is more impt to me in this stage of my life... $_$

at times i feel life is so UNFAIR... in fact... i tink ITS ALWAYS UNFAIR... =)

my mission statement = treat those who r good to me, those who treat me badly - to hell wif u? LOL

let me tell u wad i'm happy abt NOW...

i'm happy tat my 2-3mths spent in my current job, colleagues are gd to me, dote on me alot... at times they buy me breakfast, coffee to perk me up... even the CLEANER supervisor is gd to me too... =_=

happy tat i've a GOOD fren whom i considered... bought me a pair of earrings and not being so KAY GAO wif me whenever we go out, unlike the others... (to tat special fren - u shd noe who u r, at least i've a fren like u)

and thanks to a small grp of frenz whom i've known since ite, recorded 6 diff bday songs for me as my gift... its touching, and i will nv forget...

its nv ez to make mi smile, its the little small things U do to make mi smile... =)

contract endin in abt 2-3wks... leavin abit yi yi bu she... if not for the pay, i'll probably extend my contract wif them... i'm realistic... coz i nid $... who will support me if i dun earn my own income.. rite? LOL

been lookin through some courses available to further studies... manager was askin me to consider taking up some course at CISCO after seeing my results... hmm... went to the website to c some of the courses... not bad.. quite interested in some...

quite interested in a degree in business computing by Informatics... but tat one damn exp lor.. $2,163/module.. its a one yr degree course, 12 modules... tat one mayb will consider it ONE FINE DAY when i've worked enuff, saved enuff LOL...

right nw, happy wif my present life... and i'm thankful tat i've known someone who clicks wif me LOL... we talk alot haha... mayb tats the difference when u know someone who is older than u by more than 6yrs... topics we chat abt is so different frm wad u normally chat wif those ard ur age... time spent on gb is more compared to the past... LOL. making an effort to gb almost every nite, even tho it means lesser slp for me, and gg to wrk wif my BIG eyes closing every 10mins, drinkin coffee every 1hr... coz its our only time to communicate... THROUGH GB... =x

both of us bz workin, juz tat i count myself more lucky than him... =)

he's cute... not in looks, but in certain ways. and i like his thinking... we're juz gd frenz LOL... i came to realize a fact tat i can be gd frenz to everyone, but not a gf to someone... =) so pls... dun tink of gettin me a bf yet, coz i'm nt interested haha... i will get one myself when the time comes... dinners... no problem LOL...

haha... i've startin filtering 2 of my frenz... who shall be the nxt on MY LIST? its getting more & more exciting... wahahaha...

merry xmas to all... anyway xmas makes no difference to me... juz spendin of $ to buy gifts for others... COZ i dun celebrate xmas? haha...



dunno y felt so sleepy tis mornin... from 830am-3pm all the way sleepy... 3pm teabreak, chiong go drink kopi... awaken a little la... then all the way eyes big big chiong work till 530... LOL

piangz last whole wk no one in office... today FULL attendance... so many things to do... mountains of paperwork & data entry to b done into Oracle... smtimes dun _stand their mentality lor... enjoy doing dbl work -_- flipping the same paper again again and AGAIN... i've gone through the papers so many times till LAN liaoz... nw i tink wad is on the list oso can memorise... my table's a mess when i'm workin... if one fire light up... cfm like sio kim zua... LOL

the administrator oso one kind leh... ask him gimmi access into tis network folder, YES... he did... then he go deny my access in another folder... feel like slappin him leh... i nid to go into another folder through tat folder... luckily i saved a shortcut, arbo i can LL no nid do anythin leh...

enter till ai koon... whole day juz sit there and enter... fonecalls come i juz ignore... i can only hear the lunchtime bell ring and teabreak bell ring... the rest... selective listening... Haha...

xmas coming... bought the necessary gifts, chocolates... waiting for their owners to claim... LOL... esp Mr. KS... wad a bz man he is..

lookin forward to gifts exchange too...

been playin gb since last wkend... finally found sth to be obsessed in... =x

i love ICECREAM... =) yummy~~~



WAD THE F*** DO I WAN TO CARE SO MUCH

ANYWAY

???



my 21st bday last tues... was spent in the hospital.. >.<

wad a MEMORABLE 21st bday... -_-

sharp pain in my stomach gave me a sleepless night in the wee hours of tues mornin... rolled all over in my bed, and at 7, mum finally decided to bring me to the hospital to A&E......

check here check there... only remembered after the doct took my blood sample, i struggled awhile on the bed and TOH... lala land.. in the end i went home wif injections on my left hand... PAIN... >.< esp the part whr one BIG needle go through me and at there for few hrs... *cries*

haiz...

recently... dunno wad has happened lor..

everythin feels so different liao...

ppl... tell me.. am i a difficult person to get along wif?
personally i dun tink so or feel so... i may nt get along wif EVERYONE or anyone, but i can get along wif those who are willing to try and wants to get along well wif me...

i alrdy tried ler... tried my best... to open up someone who's quiet & shy... BUT i tink i FAILED -_- i really fail lor... my easy-going character really cant influence tat special you...... cant open u up to be a more expressive person......

i oso dunno wad to do liaoz... gek sim liaoz -_-



hmm... extract tis paragraph frm somewhr... =)

wan to share wif my beloved frenz...

"We have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learnt how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete."

Quite meaningful i mus say....... lots of thoughts running through my mind.....



back frm chalet ystday... happy & fun~~~

thanks to my dearest parents as well as relatives for helpin me celebrate my 21st bday... nt forgettin my frenz too... they gave me a BIG surprise indeed... so touched when i heard the 6 different bday songs... it mus hav took feng a long time and effort to find these songs and write it into a disc for me as my bday present... =)

pics nt fully uploaded and edited yet... but will try to do it asap...

today on mc due to diarrhoea, nw gastric damn pain...

some pics for u guys...









thanks to all who wished me... i expected all those wishings like - "may u find ur prince charming soon" etc etc... or happiness soon... Haiz... i oso hope to find tat special someone soon wor... BUT... seriously, nid fate and right timing lah... cannt b rushed... tats y nw everythin i tryin to do it slowly, step by step...

suddenly feel so OLD lor... everyone askin me whr my bf, when getting married... pengz -_- no bf hw to marry zZz... they say after my 21st bday, they are lookin forward to my wedding... ~_~

nw alright lah... altho gt a gd guy come along... BUT... we're still frenz lor... i dun dare to expect anythin to happen out of tis friendship... let things be and let nature take its course is better... certain things... cannt qiang qiu...

there's nth for me to hiam abt tis guy lah seriously... we share the same goals, dreams, interests and other more things... and we complement each other in many ways, like he's shy, and i'm noisy & siao... he's optimistic, whereas i'm pessimistic... mayb i'll juz let time decide and let tis friendship blossom... hahaha =)

as for tat "someone" (wil nt mention who is it) hmm... at times u're still on my mind, and i still cant get over u... coz u'll always b my fren... for 2yrs... i'm waiting... hopin tat u'll wish me happy bday... BUT... u did not... cant expect much lah... but i tink i'm nt expectin too much from a friend rite? hmm...



finally... tml's fri...... wil b wrkin half day nia... wahaha...

tml AM and colleague, clerk nt in... = zhao fan (rebellion) LOL...

gt lots of things to settle tml, so decided to take half day to do my stuff... submit timesheets, sign extension of contract, appt at Orchard at 3pm... lalala~

tis week quite a handful of things to do... filing of drawings.... file till take up one whole big shelf... haha.... attending of meetings and meetings... suddenly feel like my admin position so impt leh... LOL...

today boss gave me laptop to work on... YEAH... bye to the horribly slow desktop, BIG monitor which is taking up SOOoooooo much space... i finally haf sth smaller to work on... Acer de laptop even smaller than mine... BUT... screen really small sia... Haha...

b4 leaving... AM asked me to go meeting wif him... omg~ i tot wad big thing happened... but he wanted me to go home and tink abt wad i wan... wad r my plans... wad i wan to learn if i stayed on... he dun wan me to waste my time doing admin in the company... wil be givin him an ans mxt mon... now dilemma... really mus go tink hard abt it lor...

in life so many things to worry and tink abt, then make decisions and choices......

thanks to Uncle sam... for introducing his gd fren cum bro cum campmate or wad... nt very sure abt their relationship... haha =x

anyway... tat fren of his is a nice guy... shy and honest... the first time i met him... both of us blushed... LOL... tat uncle sam kip luffin... said both of us so cute, and fated to noe each other... -_- coz we came frm the same poly, thinking oso the same... haha... juz tat he's optimistic, i'm pessimistic... tats y uncle sam introduced him gimmi so tat we complement each other? LOL...

feel comfortable chatting wif him, coz he dun tell lies... or rather he dunno hw to tell lies... LOL... Uncle sam said he's gg to pass the ownership of him to me... Haha... coz i nid him more than uncle sam do...

uncle sam kip on askin how's our progression... haha... and i'll tell him... we're fine... happily chatting... he will smile and say "when u all tie the knot, dun forget me" -_-

right now, juz hope tat life would be like tis everyday... happy, w/o worries, wif someone to support & encourage u.... and no lies and sweet talking... juz honesty and truth... =)

thanks to tat special someone... =)
not forgetting Uncle Sam too... LOL



hair's long... messy... "curtain" oso long ler...

bday's coming...

xmas's coming...

then NEW YEAR oso coming...

BUT... i dun feel happy at all...........

dun haf the kind of festive mood in me... -_-

recently heard eason's song... quite nice but abit sad... "Dui Bu Qi, Xie Xie" (The title of the song)

happy for one of our friend who's gettin married nxt yr... feel so happy for her lor... can really c she's so xing fu... which seems so diff to be true in
nowadays de society... at least there's sth positive happening.......

hmm... past few days... bz supporting everyone in office even tho office gt not much ppl... but lots of things to do... learnt Oracle... quite amazin i mus say... but mus be careful when using it lor... sianz leh... contract till Jan 10 nxt yr... right now, still hunting for jobs lor... sending resumes... hoping to be interviewed one day... Haha...

recently.. feel so disappointed and unhappy.... wif frenz and other issues... for those whom i've talked to... thanks for ur patience... and ur listening ears... smtimes tink it over... WHY? why do such "ppl" exist or why do such things happen?

anyway... tryin to c open liaoz lor.. and not expecting much liaoz... from frenz or anyone... in life, still feel tat its more reliable to depend on ownself.. coz only i noe wad i wan... havin a few gd frenz i tink is enuff ler..... wads the use of havin a whole wide circle of frenz... when.................. haiz

gotta start filterin out some of my so-called frenz...

wad a boring sunday...... but its the only day i can rest...