xmas eve...

received lotsa xmas gifts today... amt of gifts = lvl of popularity? haha.. joking =p

2008 approaching... to conclude 2007 - suay

withdrew my part-time studies due to loss of interest, unable to cope, busy work schedule which makes me leave the office ard 7-8pm...

many many unhappy incidents happened... made me opened my eyes and see clearly the other side of humans. in the end, i was the only one being simple and naive. wad can i say?

no longer the one i used to be anymore... dunno hw to be understanding, showing sympathy or being kind to others. coz ppl take u for granted and take advantage of u.

hard for me to trust ppl anymore or let anyone else come near me. coz i believed those who come near me seriously do have a motive.

always thought - as long as i try hard to get sth i wan, even if i did not get it, i will still be fine, coz at least i did try. BUT... haiz. until now, i still cannt forget... how the insulting was. guess it will take me a long long time to forget.. but i will not forgive. curse or hate me if u wan to.

i may appear to be strong, but deep inside me is filled wif nth but hurt and hatred. i do not know how to neutralised them or eliminate them. but hurt is more than hatred...

had a very happy birthday at shangri-la THE LINE... blew candles and had a fulfilling meal. nice to have so many ppl sitting ard u singing bday song. tats how i spent my 23rd bday with my beloved collgs.

lastly, merry xmas to all... and to myself.



when you did what you did, you never thought of the consequences.
As long as you were in your safety zone, nothing else mattered, not even me.

Sometimes I wished I meant much more, but I know it ends here.
This pain I'm going through; it's beyond what words can describe.

broken deep inside, but now, I'm hollow.
Listen to my screams, if only you can.

I was trying so hard all this while,to hold on to something that wasn't even mine, to begin with.
I know you were just waiting, waiting for fatique to overcome me,waiting for the day you'd hear me say,"I've given up."It's what I'll do, not because I'm tired,but because I love you.

wad more can i say?